Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb. I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, the days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day. Investigate my life, O God, find out everything about me; Cross-examine and test me, get a clear picture of what I’m about; See for yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong— then guide me on the road to eternal life.
From Psalm 139
Sometimes I need little reminders to focus on the details. I
received one of those reminders in my quiet time and that reminder took me back
in time to college. College was a fabulous season in my life. I
suddenly found myself with the freedom to be anyone I wanted to be.
Growing up, I was one of those kids that was at church almost every night
of the week participating in Bible study, choir rehearsal, youth group, or
volunteering with the worship team. I was a busy kid with lots of
interests and I enjoyed all my time at church. When I made it to college,
it was easy for me to develop a relationship with the Lord because church was
always fun. I had a great foundation to build upon. I remember
walking on campus to classes and having conversations with the Lord about my
desired future. I loved to worship and relished every opportunity to do
so. I believed the Bible without doubt and acted in faith according to my
beliefs. I remember having a group of friends that would get together for
worship and prayer. Not because someone told us to, but because we wanted
to be close to the Lord. There were
times we ended up praying all night! We were in love with the Lord and
wanted to spend time with Him.
Fast forward to now - I have my busy life, I have the husband &
kids, as well as very fulfilling work. My personal worship time is
nowhere near as long as it was while I was in college. But I have decided
to make some changes. There is nothing wrong with bringing back that
excitement I've lost. I'm going to allow the Lord to take me back.
I'm going to always look for good, always look for God working, always
look for the next big thing God wants to do in my life. I'll allow the
Lord to take me back to being that young, excited girl that was fully in love
with Him and lived life to the fullest.
Enjoy this medley performed by myself and Dan Rixon: